Thursday, April 06, 2006
i think i care too much. about how people think of me, whats happening around me, & so much other stuff that might not even affect me directly. i hate how i let something that happened in the past hurt me right now; its stupid yet i cant help feeling that way. im ashamed of the thoughts that ran through my head.it might be because of my wary, over-sensitive nature. i keep thinking that if something happened before it can always happen again. but for every relationship you have to give and take, cause thats how you let it grow and make it a better stronger friendship. the past builds the present, and the future cant be foretold.so what matters most & should be cherished is the present. if i were to hold grudges, sharon wouldnt be someone i love so much.
accept the past since it's already happened, live your fullest in the present to have a brighter future. situations can either make or break you, its really your decision to make. just that sometimes, some things are better left unsaid.
sorry.cant help feeling a bit emoshyt right now.i feel as if i know exactly what to do right now & that is to just forget such an insignificant event cause i sincerely want to. but i assume my mind didnt convey that message to my heart.
u know i forgive you and you're still my love
its just the initial shock(=
muchest love-
